Reflection

Jus came back from work...

I feel i wanna write something further to console Bebek...so i will tell my case to u guys..i hope it wun be bored...in fact, i never tell this to anyone

seriously, when it goes to studies, i always know i can be the best...ya....ever since in my primary skool, i wasn't in the top class b4....but when in primary 5, i was in the 1st place of my class...thus i entered the best class when i was in primary 6...i really enjoyed the success....but i was jeered by my ex-classmates...well..u know...kids are childish at those times..but i dun really care of it...i was one of the prefect in the primary skool....i guess it was bcos that time...my parents started to demand more and more from me...

And in some incident, my parents have to send me to malaysia...i was only 14 that time i think...well...i wasnt suppose to be same class wif u guys b4....cos i din study form 2...i skipped from form 1 to form 3 (aka j31)...in that year, we are having that 初中統考 rite???i din work hard that time, yet i got fair result....I guess that was one of the reason why I turned lazy in High skool....

Looking back,I do really regret i did not study hard in the last 3 years in Han Chiang...I always think....if i had study hard...i din have to switch from science stream to commerce stream in UNI
Anyways....u guys all know wad happen to me by the 4 yrs in han chiang

I bet all of u will be shock when u guys see me in Sydney....nearly 70% of my property in my room are books, and it I still have 3.5 semesters to go...even though i always skip lectures, tutorials and seminars (my 出席率 is roughly20%), i read text books every nite...prepare and distribute my own notes for each of the subject...as well as helping my fds or my fd's fd to do their assignment or acting tutor....even tho sometimes the subject that they took, i actually din do that subject...plus i have to work around 3-4 days every week to earn my living expenses in Australia...my family "abandoned" me by not giving me money anymore

OK, i receive many compliments by those ppl, some are really grateful to me...some are taking advantage of me..but i dun really care....i always think....i feel happy to help them...

but so wad???thatz nth...我的gf(GOOD FRIEND)提醒了我 :"做人要量力而為...DUN FORCE URSELF TOO MUCH...Cos u are hurting urself too much...u r taking too much burden, u r pushing urself too much till sometimes i really wanted to tie u up and let u take a rest". Well....my problem is actually....i dun like to reject ppl's offer...i will help them wadeva i can....and everybody now says I m very smart...but wad did i gain??NOTHING....in fact i really feel i m 犯賤=.=

Bek, never assume that they will blame ur stupidity cos u r not GOD, ur assumption can never be correct...if YES, please tell me the lottery number for this week...never feel guilty for urself because in a work team, the primary goal is submit the best group assignment....if they blame u, thatz their problem bcos they choose u to be in their team and u dun have to feel sorry or sth....show ur heart and they will know that u r contributing the best u can in the group work...

I dunno if i shud write this post...i m just 有感而發...I know u will be fine soon....

GUYS...sorry for posting such a long post....cos i actually have too much stuffs to tell all...haha

BeAr bEaR™