Bonjour(good morning), This is my first time blogging, reading this blog make me feel guilty since i agreed to post a blog every month when we are discussing it 2 years ago. I am so happy by seeing you sharing your story, picture, feeling and some more funny incident. I think is time for me to post something.
I am currently studying in UTAR Perak campus now(for someone who don't know that). This is a local U in Malaysia, cheap tuition fees which allow my family to support me. This campus is not much special compare to others, Low quality building, low quality lecturer, low quality lab apparatus, low quality service, and low quality facility. Don't be surprised that actually quite some students like here and i am one of them. The population of UTAR is made up by 80% chinese, 18% indian and 2% other races(include malay), a local U with less than 1 percent malay. COOL.
The next thing i am going to show you all is some pictures i taken.
I found i got not much picture to show leh, may be next time i try to get more.
Actually the main reason of writting this blog is to ... my feeling out.
I like a girl... I know her 2 year ago since 2007JAN, and i start to feel sth towards her during the end of second semester(AUG 2007). I thought that is just like not real, so i let it go. Until the end of 3rd semester(DEC 2007), the feeling kept on showing from the deep of my heart. After some time, i decide to let it go, since we are going to study in different places(she in setapak, and i in kampar).
After 1 whole year, or i should say during the one whole year2008, nomatter how hard i try tofocus on other thing, the feeling does not fade away. i got no idea how many night i am thinking of her and sometimes i even regret that y i didn't confess to her during the time when i still have the chances.
After the first semenster in year 2008, the U decide to transfer some of the students come to kampar. At that time, i felt hope and it is when the bad things comes. I started to plan how do i tell her how i feel, but i do not want to direct jump into the topic, I start with contact her since i had been long time didn't see her dy, and hope everything can start from the beginning.
It is so gladly that their gang is coming to penang last year during the sem break. I almost try my best to accompany them and hope just to have more time to spend with them.
At the end of last year DEC, i travel to KL just to pass her a present, for any goddamn reason, she didn't accept it, i felt sad but i give myself a reason which is it is just not the correct time. PS. i do no know where she work, and i do not know how to get there, but i just got the name of the school she working. Search a primary school from the whole PJ, by just using 1 map.
This YEAR, i feel is the time is correct, so i choose to tell her what i feel during prompt night(2 days before valentine). After i gave her the present i prepare for her, which bought from IPOH. She told me that actually all is too late. She told me she once have feeling towards me as well, but all is just too late. She actually planned to start relationship with me during the last year trip to penang, but just everything is just too late.
What i felt that night is she said we might got chance, but not now. but afterwards, ... she start to avoid me, which make me feel sad, and some more lots of thing happens. After 1 month, the worst month i ever pass. I don know how many -------------skip-----------------
Last night, i directly tell her what i feel and she honest with me that she felt there are no chances btw us... GOD BLESS ME.. today i got a 20% physiology midterm.
I am quite a cool person actually, i am bleeding inside and i act nothing outside... Should i cont, or not... I found that i really like her and i also know that she is the kind of person that will never look back...
I need some fresh air...
and can i restrict this post to happy zoo onnly, i don want other to see it
1 comment:
Ohh ya, i want to tell everyone I am actually fine, don worry abt me.
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